my untalks

mann ma khatkeko sano kura.

2008-07-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

kura last time Bhaktapur ghumna jaada ko ho..
office bata ek huul manche Changu dekhi bhaktapur samma hidne plan banaaka thyau... hidyau pani...

tehi kramma hami dattatraya square ma pugeka thiyau.... tyaha square ko bichha ma raheko thhulo shila stambha ko fed ma yo saani naani kaagati bechdai raheeche.... bhaag lagayera.....

hami sab ghumna gaako .... baato bhari foto soto khichdai... manoram drishya ani bhaktapur ka kala shaili haru camera ma kaid gardai gareka thiyou... yo pani ramro aauncha bhanera maile yeenko euta foto khichey..... bachhi halka hasheeeen....
aru saathi haru pani tespachi suru bhaye.... naani ta hollywood celebrity jhai.. ekai chin ma 3-4 jana le lagaataar foto khichna thale pachi uni alik hichkichaiin......
"niyashro lagecha kyara..." malai lagyo.... ra ek chin sochepachi... agadi gayera ek bhaag kaagati kiney maile usko baata...
"kati ho??"
"paanch rupiya..."
paisa nikalera diye....
"kun liney chhannus..." usle aadhi nassunne garee madhuro swor ma baru hataile boley jasto lagne garee ... ishara gareen...
"kun bhaag ma raamro raamro cha... timi aafai chaneu la...."
ek chin akamakkiyera usle euta bhaag tira aaula tersyaeen.... pretty random, i could figure out

kei ber pachi samma pani sathi haru foto khichdai thiye.... tyo bela samma tyo saani fucchhi ka aru sathi haru pani jamma bhai sakeka thiye..... fuchhi ko aba dherai confidence jhalkee sakeko thiyo anuhaar ma.....

farkina laagi sakeka thiyau.. achaanak ... fuchi ko swor prashta sunine garee awaaz aayo...."hamile ta k paaucha ra... (timiharule po) foto bechera tanna paisa aaucha"....

tyo vaakya mutu lai chirdai... dimaag samma bajriyo.... hamile paisa ka lagi foto khicheka thiyenau... na nai tyo foto bechne kunai hamro uddeshya... tara hami sabai awaak thiyou... lagthyo maile bolee birsiyechu.....
yo kurale dherai din samma mero antaraatma lai jhaskyaee rahyo.... bhabishya ma pani yo prashna darlagdo sapana jastai aairahane cha (saayad)....

A walk to remember : just for few days to come...

2008-05-20T21:28:00.000-07:00

The day, 21st May, 2008.
Situation : Strike (Nepal banda)
Reason : protest on Brutal killing of a businessman by supporters of dominant political party

So, there were very little, if at all, chances of vehicles running on the valley road. On top of that, since I had to go through Koteshwor(the victim was locale of), no chance even of cycling(cyclist had to walk their cycle out); bikes and cars or buses were out of question.

I set a target of 1.5 hrs walk to the office. Started out at 7.40 in the morning with some sun block and a cool shade.

The very busy Araniko highway was amazingly not empty on this day as well. Well, the road was full of people walking. The blacktop used to rumbling tyres was socializing with shoe and sandal soles. Well not so amazing, after all. Nepalese are known for being calm and resilience. Not so surprisingly, we have walked enough of such strikes and they hardly can stop people from reaching their destination any more.

Some 15 minutes of walk when I reached the origin of the strike. Could clearly see a mass of people making sure that no means of transport pass through Jadibuti and not a single shop, cold store is open around the premises.

The shiny black top rendered dull black by tyre ashes and drastically decreasing the O2:(SO2+N2O+NO2) ratio in the immediate atmosphere. Again, to not so much surprise, people have learnt how to tackle the situation. Some veterans have mask hiding almost full faces, other amateurs simply cover nose and mouth with a hanky, few naives try n run away as quickly as possible, yet some pros.... they can simply walk through just like walking on lawn!!!!

Core in the brawl standing, I could see a dhulikhel bus ramping the road heading towards us from bhaktapur side. The C.G. of the bus seemed clearly arosen a marked height from its motion. The bus must be carrying 150+ people, anyone could safely assume even from a km away past the Manohara bridge. In no time, the sight was gazed by almost every people present there and in next second, the brawl started striding towards the bus. The scene resembled the start of mythological war with spearmen running in front.

I could see, it took no time for the bus driver to grasp the situation, as the bus immediately came to a halt and started to turn around. The turn was so wild, a chill ran down my body. A bus with so many passengers trying desparately to turn on a merely two lane road and in such a delicate situation, had all the chances in the world to get over turned. Quite obvious, there was not enough space to turn back the bus in single spin of steering, it needed at least 6-7 back-n-forths to head backwards. The attempt from the driver to save the bus from rampage of the brawl seemed not the best(or least worse) outcome of that situation. The bus was going to flip any second now... and I was standing gazing the scene crushing my fingers, feeling a rush in my whole body. The brawl was getting nearer and nearer as the bus was trying desparately to get away....

This blog badly lacks a video or atleast some snaps as words are not adequate to visualize the scene (a picture is worth 1000 words, and typical viedoes range from 21 to 39 frames/sec).

The bus... well the bus was not so lucky, the driver howsoever had some sense and eventually decided to save some lives and prevent casualties in price of the damage to the bus. It gave up in the middle of its turning back process.
Passengers started getting off the bus hurriedly, some even jumping off the roof. By the time the bus was almost empty, the brawl was already surrounding the bus.

Having some 10 minutes standing on the scene, I continued the walk feeling much relieved that a bad accident just avoided from being tomorrow's awful headline. Not the headlines, but the scene will definitely hit the daily papers tomorrow because the bus is gonna get some heavy damage!! The glasses shattered, the body crushed or even possibly set on fire!!!

Another minor incident, a teenager was vigourously being chased by a bunch of protesters. Why?? the reason I found out was he threw a stone at a local coffee shop forcing to close the shop, the very shop where few protesters were having a break protesting and enjoying some tea!!!! "wtf@#$@#$"

Reaching to my destination from then is out of the scope of this blog, though had some unusual moments.

A rapid stream of thoughts about the construction works for expanding the Chinaway to six lanes (I so wanted to write about it, and its been a while now) and also a joke I heard on the way from a some 40+ aged lads... but.... in some other posts.....

After The Inconvenient Truth...

2007-12-03T08:00:00.001-08:00

believe me when I say I'm really influenced. I knew the things about the global warming and was aware about these issues before I watched this movie. But this documentary gotten me into some new dimensions and introduced me to some new stuffs.

I was in the high while watching it, so much so that I felt like giving up Computer Engineering and work for the environment, for the Earth, for the people on the Earth, for human kind, to be precise. But then… it won't need much time for a normal man to get out of the revolutionary ride and get back to ground.

Yup, I mean I ain't giving up what I'm headed towards; in fact I can't. Well one can always bring in the 'GUTS' word and make fun of these feelings but he and all else should have a sub-conscience underlying their current thinking, - 'of the responsibilities a normal human being has, of the little dreams he has with typically narrow scope -- of having a happy life, happy family, success as in this sense, …' - I believe.

After all, I can't give my whole life picking up garbage to minimize pollution, I can't go on road telling every individual driver to maintain their vehicle so as to reduce the emission of harmful gases, nor can I keep on pleading the big factories to re-engineer their plants so as to make them environment friendly. No way!

On the extreme, even if I go insane and start acting towards it, the problem is not going to solve. It's simply not the matter of individual effort. We all know, it's the matter of global effort (this all of us student who have taken classes of environment know by heart, even if some of us don't really figure out how). To much extent, as he (who used to be the next president of U.S.) said, it’s a political issue. Meaning, politics play defining role in it.

Sounds like I'm being irresponsible towards it, not doing anything or trying to sidestep, saying it ain't gonna work even if I drag my ass whole my life. Again think from a normal man's perspective …, I know you feel the same; after all we all are normal people… well most of us (and I mean MOST of us). But there are things, a lot of ways to be responsible.

Well, to start… let's say by spreading the knowledge we have to others whenever we get chances. NO, I don't mean to organize several seminars, talks right now, neither I mean to take a break from your daily life and start campaigning. If some nerds read this and act precisely this way, well ahem... that'd be some good thing for the earth. However, I didn't mean so; just start with small things. You can aware people when the talks come out in these concerns at various situations. OR, participate in tree planting campaigns whenever u get chances. Speak up whenever issues such as 'whether to build a new factory to minimize the establishment cost or to scientifically construct so as to minimize its hazards' come up around. You can sign petitions circulated by somebody else to conserve forests, or to minimize vehicle emissions or to force government to follow and regulate standards towards that.

You don't even have to take lead, if you think it takes a lion's heart to do that; just sync your voice to the roar of the mass, raise your hands whenever the mass is raising… and I know you, you and you, him, her, them standing in circle, the one in red t-shirt, one with funky hat, her with gorgeous smile, that one over there standing alone, those bunch of guys flirting pass-by girls, that talented one, oh that group of hot girls (wow), every one of us can do that. We normal human being are actually kind of expert in doing this, aren't we? (Oh, I'll be damned) See, we don't even have to be that daring and do things that we hesitate to do, just do what we are expert at, and still we can help make this place a better place to live.

He (who? The same guy… the used to be next president...) mentions that most of the people are actually confused, or to say, are made confused by the big players, thinking whether these climate changes that we are witnessing today actually can bring about a disaster or are they just natural phenomena- nature can handle that and bring the balance over the years….

And yes, I admit that I am confused as well. A>Will the scientists' claim of disaster over next 40-50 years actually gonna hit the world? B>Or is it just a hypothesis that has equal chances of being not true? C>or is it that the predictions are logical, just that it is gonna take longer time (say 100-200 years or so or more!). if you are thinking why the third option..? well its for those normal people who don't give it a damn if the disaster don't happen in their life time and don't care after that.

i don’t fall in that third group for sure (believe it or not, I have said it), and I feel good about it. But I'm definitely confused by the first two possibilities. After thinking a while, I decided not to take chance (in fact, I never take chance when it comes to matter of this seriousness and similar other matters with this gravity) and self-convinced that yes the disaster is gonna hit in my lifetime unless some serious steps are taken globally (yup America is no doubt, part of the globe that I mean).

So now what I can do? It didn't took my mind much time to search through to answer what I do the best. It's amazing that I could have done a lot more other things and you are also going to get a little awkward and disappointed after you read the next few lines (What?? That's what u're gonna do??). I could have chosen to say and decided to actively work as an environmentalist…

I... I can joke and that makes people around me well atleast seem happy for the moment... I think people need a joker's eye to see the humour in the situation and i think i can see that...well i want all people around me to laugh out there part, whatever has been allocated for their part... who knows if the disaster comes earlier than it's our time... so i wan all my people to laugh out so that they don laugh short than they deserve...

what if the disaster dont come in our lifetime......well in that case, all these people are lucky, they get to laugh more than their share.......

Life--Journey

2007-10-23T02:45:00.000-07:00

it was few days back...... i was on a travel to pokhara (a hiking to Ghorepani to be precise). 5 of us off from kathmandu to pokhara... decided to go on a bus....... other 4 went on bike... the biker boyz... welll not so bikerboyz actually...
started the journey at 7:30.. but jam at kalanki... passed the checkpost at about noon only...

ok the journey started and so is the story...
during the journey one thing striked me hard all the way...
now u know that the road is chain of uphills and downhills....
the bus was lil old it seems... well not too old though. it was slow while on uphills, had to shift to higher gears, sounded awkwardly loud as if it cudn't and didn't wanted to climb. the engines were like about to burst out, awfully slow boring dragging itself , like the whole bus is gonna fall in pieces..... so miserable.... sounds like normal.... everyone knows it and has experiences like it..
but when it came to rollin down, it was superbly fast movin at around 100 in the speedometer, whooshed everythin passed by, in full control, wow life in the fast lane baby,, like this is life, exciting, perfect......

with the current state of affairs, constantly jammin my head and i can't despite all my efforts get the thing off my head....... it's on my head almost every moment... for about a month now i guess... hey this is very much like life isn't it.....
yes it is.... life is also of ups n downs... it is bright when everything goes fine.... life in the highest.... beautiful when u get what u want, live up to expectations.... good things happen to u, good news strike ur ears... u succeed in life, good education, friends, everyone likes u , u're joyous, every moment is a gift and u cant stop smilin...
and then the other half... it seems like it's over when hard days come in front of u.... u don know what to do what not to.... where to go who to tell... nothing makes u happy anymore whereas every lil thing used to take a laugh out of u. nothin is beautiful- nothing now the bright sun is irritating hot, the cool breeze are shivering cold. the bloomin flowers are laughin at you, the singing birds mocking you... ur lucky charm deceiving you .... feels like i cant continue.. this is it.. i wanna stop ... i cant bear it anymore.... no more please.. no more.. somebody help me out of this... oh God... save me... get me out .. show me the path... plz... plz ... plzzzzzzzzzzzz

but hey, on the journey i found out that the uphills were actually shorter than they appeared... it was juz the bus was movin slowly... it had its fixed length.. jus that if seemed extra longer.. and felt like never endin... whereas the downhills were gone fast in no time.....
i hope the life is same.... should be just the feeling that the bad days are longer. it has its destined period i guess and comes the good days.... and yes they feel like pass by quickly... isn't it so?? should be like that....

nowadays .... i feel like (after this journey taught me...) my life is up a steep hill.... helll i'm already exhausted and it's damn hard to take any more... i'm fightin every moment now... (near n dear one ask me in sympathy.. "are u tired..."--"hell no i'm tired" i offend.... (damn encapsulation) doesn't seem like endin... everything is blur and i don see the light any near.... but i'm fightin... and hope that one happy downhill run is on the end of this climbing
i cant wait any more for that happy decent.. and then i'll be as ever joyous as i am (or used to be).. just that when will it come... i feel like i've dragged myself for years.... jus the hope makes me move now.... pray that the day comes soon.... lest the days fall short......